What Color are you?
REDReds are motivated by POWER, seek productivity, and need to look good to others. Simply stated, REDS want their own way. They like to be in the drivers seat and willingly pay the price to be in a leadership role. REDS value whatever gets them ahead in life, whether it be at work, school, or in their personal relationships. What REDS value, they get done. They are often workaholics. They will, however, resist being forced to do anything that doesnt interest them.Reds need to appear knowledgeable. They crave approval from others for their intelligence and insight. They want to be respected even more than they want to be loved. They want to be admired for their logical, practical minds. REDS are confident, proactive, visionary, and can be arrogant, selfish, and insensitive. When you deal with a RED, be precise, factual, and direct.
Comfortable Indifference
Nothing ever seems to go the way that we plan it out...does it?
I can't honestly say that I remember the last time I felt, for lack of a better term, well.
I feel sick all the time, constantly, and it's not just because of lack of sleep, because I still haven't slept any better in the last passing weeks, my immune system is as fine as what can be expected. Here's the kicker, if I'm well physically, then metaphysically, I'm screwed up as hell. There's this cancer, that's eating away at every part of me. Not a real one. A figurative cancer. I'm always bored, when I'm alone I don't do anything but cry, when I'm around people that I feel comfortable around is the only time when I can truly reach that level of comfort. I'd rather not be alone, because, frankly, I've been alone almost all my life. It's no picnic. Then again I think to myself that, "this is the way life just is...things are supposed to be shitty." They are not!
Humans live in endless pursuit of one unattainable feeling. True happiness. I've never been happy, I'm one of those people that has accepted the part that I play in the cymbiant circle of these days. I'm one of those people that has settled for comfortable indifference. Take just this week for example; I meet this great bunch of guys at my college, playing ultimate frisbee, which I'm pretty good at, mind you I'm the only girl in the Ultimate Frisbee Club that we have going down here, the current ratio stands 1 (me) : 17 (guys) there's one that stands out to me. We talk, realize that we have a lot of common interests that go beyond just throwing a disk around. I'm over at his dorm (he's an RA in another residence hall) playing Halo 2 having a kick ass time hanging out. He, is also one who has settled for indifference. I keep thinking to myself, for the past eight months when I've been single that I want to stay single for awhile, now I'm insanely confused becuase things are starting to get complicated with my last ex, and now I meet this new guy that doesn't want a relationship but, I'm starting to have a crush on him in a very miniscule manner...
Mabye I should just listen to the infamous Eric Cartman on this one, "Fuck you guys, I'm goin' home." and throw in the towel for good....
